the stars are out of alignment

 oof, has it really been almost two weeks since I last posted anything? I guess I have been busy. time drags on forever and still it passes in the blink of an eye...

does anyone else feel like the stars have been out of whack lately? something in the sky pulling everything in crazy directions and tugging at the heartstrings like one giant Apollonian lyre. I know it's mercury retrograde among other things, but this is so grandiose....

(for the record, mercury retrograde does have a big impact on the way we experience our lives. ^.^' technology malfunctioning, miscommunications, losing of items, losing oneself...) 

I can speak to that, personally, having lost at least 3 things I cared not to lose during the Rx. Some of them have thankfully just been misplaced at friends' houses or the like, but losing things is hard for me,? I fixate on them (ADHD) and sometimes have disproportionate reactions to the loss. Insomnia and weeping type reactions,? Especially frustrating because 95% of the year this is an issue I've quashed. I may have atypical management methods, sure, but I'm usually very good at keeping things under control in my own way. This kind of losing jewelry and jackets makes me feel like I'm 8 years old coming home from the school playground again, and my dad's getting mad at me because I left my new coat...

Anyways, just bringing that up because I'm sure at least some of you can relate. I don't hear many people talk about it, but I know I must be far from the only one who feels that. YOU ARE NOT ALONEZ!

lol

Also have been rethinking how I post on here. How I post everywhere, really. The "performance" part of my projected online persona has lost all of the "performance" and feels much more performative now, so I'm shaking it all up. Trying to. I want to talk about books I've read, about the things I'm thinking about philosophically and spiritually, musically, whatever really, in an open-hearted and non-pretentious way, with people other than myself. But I can't have that dialogue if I never engage with it. 

things im reading

for anyone's pleasure and for my own documentation

1. A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers 
1. For the record I love Dave Eggers. He's a brilliant author and word-magician. A guy who's really not afraid to push the liquid limits of where the written word can go, what methodologies can be used to craft the world we (the readers) are taken to. He jumps from subject matter to subject matter with ease and grace. Really a philosopher in author form. This book is no different, but it is his own autobiography. Highly recommend
2. The Catcher in the Rye by JD Salinger
1. OK there's not much to say about this book that hasn't already been said before, I'm sure everyone has their comedic opinions on it,? But honestly rereading it with more self-understanding and less angst than I had when I first read it (sophomore year of high school maybe? I remember having a friend who was sooooo into the book that they bought a hunting hat just like Holden Caulfield's and wore it backwards like him too). Anyways really like the book more now. He's not so much annoying as he is misguided, I think. IDK for sure. I'm not finished with the book yet heh
3. The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway
1. I decided to reread this after ranting for an hour to a lover about how hilarious Hemingway is with his strongman puffedchest obvious COPING via this book.... and everything he did...!!! he's the human equivalent of a pick up truck with ridiculously giant rims for no reason. of an old man with Oakleys and a red Ford Mustang. Anyways this book is still beautiful (rereading it ofc) and I do personally believe it to be autobiographical

yes I am reading all of these at once and yes it is because I am a bit of a spazz

alright that's about what I had to think about for the day! I'm waiting for a phone call from this guy I found on Craigslist who needed actors for some promo shoot for his friend's company...? I think it's an app maybe. Whatever either way would be cool to make some money and be back in front of a camera again because acting is fun! HMU for your acting needs please

goodbye!

Sasha xoxo